Family

Hey everyone. Haven't blogged in a while, I know. School's been keeping me busy and stuff like that, but I though I'd take some time to write today. So..... me and my sister have been having some difficulties... its a very long story, but long-story-short... it's something that we can't agree on. I won't get into all the details, because I don't want to be typing all night. But anyway, it's something that I can't really talk about with people, including her, and I don't know what to do. Ever feel like you have no one to go to that will understand? Or that if you go to someone they just won't get it? Well, I'm in that boat. But now I'm coming to realize that I really don't have to be... I've been neglecting the one person that I know will always listen and understand- Jesus Christ. Sometimes I just want to keep my feelings to myself, when really, I would feel so much better if I just got down on my knees and talked to God for a little while. I know that I don't really get a straight forward answer, but I know that He's listening, and He cares, and if I trust in Him, He will provide. I have a teacher that told me, the more you love the Lord, the easier it will be to love your family. When you put your family before the Lord, you just get rapped up in trying to make everything perfect. I want to start putting God first in my life, and start relying on His will for me, rather than my own. When I go along with what I want for myself, and shrug away the thought that it's probably not God's plan, I end up in a mess like the one I'm in now. I definitely want to resolve the problems that I'm having with my sister, because they really are not worth fighting over, and I love her too much to let something like this come between us. Too often I forget that God is writing my life story, and He is writing my love story. Not me! I just need to put my life in His hands, and say, "Here you go. May Your will be done." It's like having a piece of paper and a pen that you can write your life story on. You need to let go of that pen and place it in God's hands. Let Him do the writing. No one knows you better than He does! He knew who you'd be before the world even existed. He loves you more than anyone in the world, and He knows what's best for you. Of course this isn't the easiest thing to do- handing that pen over to Jesus, but it's definitely rewarding.